Thursday, May 25, 2006
Upset..
Upset..
Just feel kinda upset, cuz I feel that I took unpaid leave to be with piggy, but it's about one month since I stopped working and yet, I have seen him for probably only about 2 weeks. Although I m happy to be back in Spore, I can't help feeling sad that he is not with me to enjoy the feeling of being in Spore and all the things we can do together here. I know he can't help it but I just feel angry that his sickening job gives him so little time and so few benefits...not even an air ticket for me to fly over. Ever since I stopped drawing a salary, I incurred even more expenses...have to pay for my own air tickets and it's not like it's my only expense...still have to pay for handphone bills, etc..Just feel that whatever his job can offer him just doesn't justify either of us giving up everything here. I guess, with a job, I feel more independent financially. And I also feel that at least, I didn't waste all the money studying.
Today, I was walking about with my cousin in orchard cuz she wanted to buy some stuff. Saw some nice stuff but didn't buy them cuz I felt that I shouldn't spend any money since I m not earning any now. It kinda makes me sad cuz if I were earning an income, I would be able to buy myself some things that I like, especially now that there are sales all around. But because I m drawing on my savings, I told myself I needed to be more prudent. Some of my friends think I m a 'tai tai' just because I m not working but I always tell them I m not. Tai Tais are people who, without working, can still afford the luxury of spending and travelling without even battling an eyelid. Whatever I m spending now is drawing on my savings and I was calculating the amount I wld have forgone just by not working for 6 mths -- about $20,000. And it's not like Piggy's salary can cover that, which is usually the reason why the wife stops working and lives on the husband's salary alone.
Yup, it was my choice. I chose to take no-pay leave for 6 mths. I could have chosen to just continue working. But if I did, what kind of life would we have? Imagine being able to see your husband only once every 5 or 6 weeks. E once told me that she really missed her bf when he went away for work for about a week and it was going to be increasingly frequent, like once every other month kind of thing. She already felt sian when her bf went away for a week every other month. Imagine how I felt for the past 9 months before my unpaid leave started. E sees her bf for 3 weeks and he is gone for 1 week. Then there is a 1 mth break in travelling. But it was like the opposite for me, I saw piggy for one week and he was gone for at least 3 weeks. And there was no extra break. At least for E's case, her bf's salary justify his frequent travelling...
So you can see why I really feel we are better off in Singapore. Doesn't matter even if we dun stay in a condo. However, I feel that if both of us hold normal, decent jobs; with our qualifications, we should be able to afford a condo after working for a few years. It may be difficult during the initial years, but it's fine staying in a HDB flat and then upgrading to a condo later on. Cuz that's what the government gives the grant to first-time flat buyers for. And that's what many people do too..
As many of my friends know, I really wish to have a place of my own. Not that staying with my inlaws is anything bad, on the contrary, my inlaws are very nice people and really treat me very nicely, of which I m really appreciative of. Just that, like many newly-wed couples, I m sure they would love to have their own little love nest. I dunno how to explain that kind of feeling, just like something the two of you have build and created together kind of thing, something you call your own. But at the same time, if we buy a place, I also hope that Piggy and I can enjoy it together, and not just me alone, with him travelling most of the time. It will get pretty lonely and I really hope that won't happen...i.e. I hope that both of us will be living and working in Singapore in the near future with minimal biz travelling..
Today, I was walking about with my cousin in orchard cuz she wanted to buy some stuff. Saw some nice stuff but didn't buy them cuz I felt that I shouldn't spend any money since I m not earning any now. It kinda makes me sad cuz if I were earning an income, I would be able to buy myself some things that I like, especially now that there are sales all around. But because I m drawing on my savings, I told myself I needed to be more prudent. Some of my friends think I m a 'tai tai' just because I m not working but I always tell them I m not. Tai Tais are people who, without working, can still afford the luxury of spending and travelling without even battling an eyelid. Whatever I m spending now is drawing on my savings and I was calculating the amount I wld have forgone just by not working for 6 mths -- about $20,000. And it's not like Piggy's salary can cover that, which is usually the reason why the wife stops working and lives on the husband's salary alone.
Yup, it was my choice. I chose to take no-pay leave for 6 mths. I could have chosen to just continue working. But if I did, what kind of life would we have? Imagine being able to see your husband only once every 5 or 6 weeks. E once told me that she really missed her bf when he went away for work for about a week and it was going to be increasingly frequent, like once every other month kind of thing. She already felt sian when her bf went away for a week every other month. Imagine how I felt for the past 9 months before my unpaid leave started. E sees her bf for 3 weeks and he is gone for 1 week. Then there is a 1 mth break in travelling. But it was like the opposite for me, I saw piggy for one week and he was gone for at least 3 weeks. And there was no extra break. At least for E's case, her bf's salary justify his frequent travelling...
So you can see why I really feel we are better off in Singapore. Doesn't matter even if we dun stay in a condo. However, I feel that if both of us hold normal, decent jobs; with our qualifications, we should be able to afford a condo after working for a few years. It may be difficult during the initial years, but it's fine staying in a HDB flat and then upgrading to a condo later on. Cuz that's what the government gives the grant to first-time flat buyers for. And that's what many people do too..
As many of my friends know, I really wish to have a place of my own. Not that staying with my inlaws is anything bad, on the contrary, my inlaws are very nice people and really treat me very nicely, of which I m really appreciative of. Just that, like many newly-wed couples, I m sure they would love to have their own little love nest. I dunno how to explain that kind of feeling, just like something the two of you have build and created together kind of thing, something you call your own. But at the same time, if we buy a place, I also hope that Piggy and I can enjoy it together, and not just me alone, with him travelling most of the time. It will get pretty lonely and I really hope that won't happen...i.e. I hope that both of us will be living and working in Singapore in the near future with minimal biz travelling..
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