Tuesday, September 06, 2005
It's not such a great day after all...
It's not such a great day after all...
Didn't really have a fantastic day..early in the morning, my boss dropped by and reminded me to follow up on some outstanding matters, assigned me a few more tasks and also reminded me to help MD with some stuff which she was doing. I was visibly irritated by his reminders which I think I showed through my defensiveness in not wanting to do some of the things he asked me to do cuz I felt it was not neccesary & a waste of time. Well, if you do not already know, although my boss is really a very nice boss, fatherly, kind & caring, he has this habit of always wanting to do more than is needed. In a way, we can call this 'pre-empting' the big boss or 'taking the initiative' or simply just being 'gei kiang' (in hokkien, means pretend to be clever).
I always feel that there is a simpler way of doing things but somehow, he seems to always want us to 'run the extra mile'. Although I know that this is just his style of working and not that he is mean, I still can't help complaining sometimes. And talking about MD, sometimes, I am really quite frustrated with her & the way work is distributed here. I don't mean to compare but I feel that MD should do more or at least equal to me since she has been here longer than me and is probably more experienced than me in every aspect but this is clearly not the case. Sometimes I really feel like telling her to just break out of her shell and not always feel so negative cuz it affects herself, the way she works and also indirectly affects the people working with her. But everytime I see her feeling so low about herself, I also can't bear to tell her off cuz I know she does try her best, but dunno why she just can't take on more. I mean I don't mind doing more but does it mean my pay is also double? Sadly, no..& survival here really depends on whether the one on top of my boss likes you or not and is not always based on the merits of your work. So sometimes, I just slack off..cuz I feel that it's no point working so hard in a place like this. When you work harder to meet more of the deadlines and targets, it just means more is given to you instead of to someone else who is slower, so what is the point? & when I query why I need to take over something, the explanation given to me is that someone else cannot cope. So does it mean that because I can cope, you can keep piling things that others cannot cope with onto me? Sometimes, I feel really upset thinking about this. I mean that's one of the poorest reasons to give to your subordinate. Guess poodie is rite, I should learn to be as slow as MD, then my boss won't pile more work on me...
Anyway, talking about happer things, I just signed up for the Pan Pacific Wedding Show on 2 Oct 05 today! Heard that Pan Pac is really beautiful and saw some pics from a Pan Pac Wedding which HS sent me..was really nice! :) I like it!! But heard that it's pricey too..think the admission fee shows it too..cuz it's $38 for 2 pax while most other wedding shows (even some of those those big scale ones) cost only 20 over bucks!...so hopefully it will be something really good...looking forward to the show!:)
I always feel that there is a simpler way of doing things but somehow, he seems to always want us to 'run the extra mile'. Although I know that this is just his style of working and not that he is mean, I still can't help complaining sometimes. And talking about MD, sometimes, I am really quite frustrated with her & the way work is distributed here. I don't mean to compare but I feel that MD should do more or at least equal to me since she has been here longer than me and is probably more experienced than me in every aspect but this is clearly not the case. Sometimes I really feel like telling her to just break out of her shell and not always feel so negative cuz it affects herself, the way she works and also indirectly affects the people working with her. But everytime I see her feeling so low about herself, I also can't bear to tell her off cuz I know she does try her best, but dunno why she just can't take on more. I mean I don't mind doing more but does it mean my pay is also double? Sadly, no..& survival here really depends on whether the one on top of my boss likes you or not and is not always based on the merits of your work. So sometimes, I just slack off..cuz I feel that it's no point working so hard in a place like this. When you work harder to meet more of the deadlines and targets, it just means more is given to you instead of to someone else who is slower, so what is the point? & when I query why I need to take over something, the explanation given to me is that someone else cannot cope. So does it mean that because I can cope, you can keep piling things that others cannot cope with onto me? Sometimes, I feel really upset thinking about this. I mean that's one of the poorest reasons to give to your subordinate. Guess poodie is rite, I should learn to be as slow as MD, then my boss won't pile more work on me...
Anyway, talking about happer things, I just signed up for the Pan Pacific Wedding Show on 2 Oct 05 today! Heard that Pan Pac is really beautiful and saw some pics from a Pan Pac Wedding which HS sent me..was really nice! :) I like it!! But heard that it's pricey too..think the admission fee shows it too..cuz it's $38 for 2 pax while most other wedding shows (even some of those those big scale ones) cost only 20 over bucks!...so hopefully it will be something really good...looking forward to the show!:)
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