Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Another Busy & Frustrating Day..
Another Busy & Frustrating Day..
Yet another day. Not much different from the day before, but I probably felt better at the beginning of the day compared to the end of the day. Cuz at the end of the day, I was being arrowed to do something else again, this time to organise another mini event.
I really wonder why my boss has such a soft spot for events, I bet he was the one who initiated it though when I asked him why we had to do it, he said it was the big boss's instruction but he didn't sound one bit convincing. Because he then told me she won't be attending the event and this thing was supposed to be done long time ago. So I guessed he was just being a smart alec by raking up the past, doing something that the big boss had probably already forgotten. Also it involved the whole division, including officers from other departments, I really wonder why the heck he had to take up this task when it was not even an initiative from our department!
I really could sense that he was the one who initiated it. As if we are not busy the way it is now and I can only forsee that the situation will get worse in Oct. At least for me. Maybe not for MD, cuz she will probably be free as a bird after that event next Fri. With no stupid committees to tie her down, she probably would be clearing her leave while poor me would be struggling to meet the deadlines for those 3 stupid meetings in October!!
My boss wanted to have the "mini event"in end Oct at first, then I told him I would be on leave on 31 Oct, 2 Nov & 4 Nov. Then he said "How about before that?"
I immediately responded, "But there are meetings on 17, 19 & 26 Oct" and I have to take minutes and follow-up on the issues raised so it will be very tight for me and I need to wrap these things up before I go on leave on 31 Oct."
But he really was persistent cuz he asked again"How about before the meetings?" As if he didn't know that the period before the meetings is the worst time to have something going on. Cuz we would be busy preparing the materials and folders. On top of that, I had to prepare 'two' major reports for submission in Oct (all thanks to MD, my original 'one' report became 'two') . And this is not all, there were also other admin stuff to do, such as coordinating training sessions (not that this is difficult, just very troublesome & I dun mean to compare but the fact is that I have 5 training courses to coordinate while MD just had 2 or 3), monitoring certain projects (updates needed), miscellaneous requests etc.....just too many for me to list out..
The thing that angered me most is why me? Why is it that I always get new things to do when MD doesn't? Just because of that event next week she can be exempted from everything else. And it's not as if she is handling the event single-handedly. We are helping her too! Just because she is so damn bloody slow, she gets less things to do. And sometimes, I really can't stand it when she gives me that pathetic face and tells me that she is 'gone case', in her own words, "I can't change, I have been like this for so many years." Although I will tell her off, that she cannot always think that way, have to change to adapt, etc.., I feel that my words simply go through her one ear and go out the other ear the very next minute cuz she never bothers to change!
I know I really shouldn't be so mad at her & I do believe in team work and helping each other out when necessary but in this instance, I simply can't help it...it's too blatantly unfair! Think this is the very last straw. The next time, my boss piles something onto me again, I am going to tell him straight in the face how I feel. Cuz I feel that the more this goes on, the more MD just takes it for granted that she can remain the way she is forever and ever and ever and this is really not possible in an everchanging world like ours. She is just plain lucky that my boss has such a kind heart that he gave her & is still giving her chances time and time again.
Right now, I still can cope, just that I feel stressed at work. I mean, how can you enjoy your work if you are stressed even though you can cope? And my boss told me today that one should come to work happy so that he/ she can enjoy his/ her work. But in this instance, how can I feel happy when I am stressed?
I really wonder why my boss has such a soft spot for events, I bet he was the one who initiated it though when I asked him why we had to do it, he said it was the big boss's instruction but he didn't sound one bit convincing. Because he then told me she won't be attending the event and this thing was supposed to be done long time ago. So I guessed he was just being a smart alec by raking up the past, doing something that the big boss had probably already forgotten. Also it involved the whole division, including officers from other departments, I really wonder why the heck he had to take up this task when it was not even an initiative from our department!
I really could sense that he was the one who initiated it. As if we are not busy the way it is now and I can only forsee that the situation will get worse in Oct. At least for me. Maybe not for MD, cuz she will probably be free as a bird after that event next Fri. With no stupid committees to tie her down, she probably would be clearing her leave while poor me would be struggling to meet the deadlines for those 3 stupid meetings in October!!
My boss wanted to have the "mini event"in end Oct at first, then I told him I would be on leave on 31 Oct, 2 Nov & 4 Nov. Then he said "How about before that?"
I immediately responded, "But there are meetings on 17, 19 & 26 Oct" and I have to take minutes and follow-up on the issues raised so it will be very tight for me and I need to wrap these things up before I go on leave on 31 Oct."
But he really was persistent cuz he asked again"How about before the meetings?" As if he didn't know that the period before the meetings is the worst time to have something going on. Cuz we would be busy preparing the materials and folders. On top of that, I had to prepare 'two' major reports for submission in Oct (all thanks to MD, my original 'one' report became 'two') . And this is not all, there were also other admin stuff to do, such as coordinating training sessions (not that this is difficult, just very troublesome & I dun mean to compare but the fact is that I have 5 training courses to coordinate while MD just had 2 or 3), monitoring certain projects (updates needed), miscellaneous requests etc.....just too many for me to list out..
The thing that angered me most is why me? Why is it that I always get new things to do when MD doesn't? Just because of that event next week she can be exempted from everything else. And it's not as if she is handling the event single-handedly. We are helping her too! Just because she is so damn bloody slow, she gets less things to do. And sometimes, I really can't stand it when she gives me that pathetic face and tells me that she is 'gone case', in her own words, "I can't change, I have been like this for so many years." Although I will tell her off, that she cannot always think that way, have to change to adapt, etc.., I feel that my words simply go through her one ear and go out the other ear the very next minute cuz she never bothers to change!
I know I really shouldn't be so mad at her & I do believe in team work and helping each other out when necessary but in this instance, I simply can't help it...it's too blatantly unfair! Think this is the very last straw. The next time, my boss piles something onto me again, I am going to tell him straight in the face how I feel. Cuz I feel that the more this goes on, the more MD just takes it for granted that she can remain the way she is forever and ever and ever and this is really not possible in an everchanging world like ours. She is just plain lucky that my boss has such a kind heart that he gave her & is still giving her chances time and time again.
Right now, I still can cope, just that I feel stressed at work. I mean, how can you enjoy your work if you are stressed even though you can cope? And my boss told me today that one should come to work happy so that he/ she can enjoy his/ her work. But in this instance, how can I feel happy when I am stressed?
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